Wednesday 18 February 2015

Non-destructive, productive, useful rebellion

"Living well is the best revenge."

True, but in the heat of the moment it can be rather hard to remember that. When we're wronged, when we're treated unfairly, when we want to hurt the person who hurt us....just living well doesn't assuage all those feelings. I should know. It is tough to get all that energy under control- that hot rush of anger, like lava, is addictive and gratifying, but ultimately hurts us and our cause more than it hurts the person in front of us.

So how can I harness that energy? I don't have an answer right now. I am honestly working on it; trying to not do anything stupid right now, trying to do something which will help me instead of helping the asshole.

Why is the title "rebellion"? When dealing with parents who secretly(or subconsciously) want you to be dependent on them so that they can use you as an ATM in their old age, it is mostly buying things for yourself and enjoying them, while making plans that don't involve them. Teenage rebellion- only it is useful to me, and not to anyone else.

9 months of shit

The coming 23rd marks the 9th month of Turd's stay in India. A lot of things have happened during that time; I gained new knowledge about a variety of topics; I gained some clarity about myself, more specifically how damaging my current style of studying is. I also gained a lot of knowledge. Like, lots of it.

I also see my family more clearly, and it has only confirmed what  I have thought about them till date. All I used to see was shit- but now I can see the individual components of said shit; as unwanted as it is. Thing is, my "family" is chock full of racist, caste-ist, narrow-minded people who can't discern the difference between emotion and reason. They're the kind of people who will claim to be the most evolved, modern people in all of India while doing the same things as the rest of Indians. They are the people who curse India with one breath and speak with pride about how "every American/European company has at least one Indian CEO" in the next (The actual quote, courtesy of Turd, had Brahmin in place of Indian there- bleargh). They are the people who'll freely and often thoughtlessly belittle and outright  abuse the people who make up a majority of our population- I'm referring to the so-called "lesser" castes and Muslims, of course.

I want to throttle my parents every time I hear anything like that from them. Turdette, who many outside people will refer to as a "great", "awesome", "very friendly/supportive" person, has (on many occasions) said that Muslims should be killed outright (apparently being a Muslim is a crime.). She has also referred to the other communities in Pune as being barbaric, primitive, etc. How am I supposed to trust anyone who can condemn somebody to death so easily just for belonging to a particular community? It seems as though the moment one deviates from the narrow definition of "normal" set by these pieces of shit, he/she is a demon, a cancer on whatever imaginary "holy" community these people have dreamt up. And the lesser said about Turd, the better. I haven't spoken much to that one, thankfully, but from the comments I hear occasionally he's the same, if not worse.

I disagree with the majority of theistic religions (including Hinduism, Islam and Christianity), but I also have a policy of "Live and let live". I also disagree with Gandhian philosophy but I can recognize others' rights to practicing the faith of their choice. Some people may recognize both sentiments as being Satanic- that's because I am a Satanist. And why not? These people are the only ones so far who have acknowledged human nature while taking efforts to curtail the more destructive side of humanity.

This side of my biological family is horrifying. Just shows the kinds of festering cesspools sheeple hide under their pristine, white woolen coats.


 Quoting Magus Peter H. Gilmore's essays (He said it much better than I could have, also much more earlier than I could've managed) :"For me this date serves as a time to call to mind the atrocities committed under the influence of theistic belief. While the ghastly horrors of The Spanish Inquisition are now but fodder for horror movies, even the grotesque mutilations appearing in the recent genre of “torture porn” films cannot approach the systematic abominations perpetrated upon people who had done nothing against those who exterminated them with “God’s will” as motivation. Those crimes should not be excused, nor forgotten. Human history in many aspects is a global tour of a religion-inspired abbatoire. That is the essential nature of temples dedicated to deity worship, whether overt such as the New World pyramids atop which living hearts were torn from the chests of both willing and unwilling victims, to the ornate Old World cathedrals of Europe so often adorned with images of suffering and damnation surounding the primary icon of a whipped and bleeding man, brow torn by thorns, who hangs broken upon a ancient Roman execution device. The centuries of death, pain and degradation celebrated therein should serve as a warning to any who celebrate life that such beliefs are virulent poison."

"While the sanctimonious of many spiritual religions will enter their sacred spaces today, thanking their God or Gods for acts of heroism performed by valiant individuals in response to that tragedy, they will smugly forget that their God did nothing to prevent these human-initiated disasters. Responsibility for what they deem to be good is assigned to their deity, while responsibility for what is deemed evil must, in their limited view, originate elsewhere, and probably from those holding different beliefs. They will fail to see that such a perspective is one shared by the terrorists. More significant than that, these people will also fail to recall that, over the centuries, far more people have been slaughtered by the followers of spiritual religions—including their own—than were killed by the Islamic terrorists on September 11 of 2001. There is blood on the hands of the ancestors of those who pray in their sanctuaries today, and that is a fact they should appreciate as fully as do we. Millions have died because fanatical worshippers refused to allow that values other than their own might have validity for those who hold them."